Oh just you wait...

I woke up and got ready for class as always..
on my way to class I stopped to get some gas, since I was on E, and found out my card was being declined. So I come home and find out my check never got deposited into my account and now I owe the bank a bunch of money for over draft fees etc...no wait it gets better... so i call the people and say W TF why hasnt my check been deposited...*Oh it was sent to you in check form* OH WHY??? *Somebody at your bank must have changed that * ya....

Needless to say, im going down there right now to yell at them all for fucking with my money in the first place. Somebody at the bank had transfered all my money from my savings to my checkings without my consent... and then i think it shut down my savings account, hence the paper check.... so now...im going to tell them they better take off every overdraft or ill take my money elsewhere bunch of fuck heads. GAH im so mad. I couldnt even go to class because I have -200.00 and no way to pay for gas. SWEET

RUN

I walked into the movie theaters with high expectations, this was a brand new theater and was supposed to be really great.  I waited in line for my popcorn my eyes searched wildly about the place.  Graffiti littered the ceiling and the walls of the theater and I began to realize this theater didn't look new at all, but run down and disgusting.  I decided I better leave, its not worth getting diseases from sitting in their grubby chairs. As I was exiting the big glass doors I noticed a group of people to my right.  I asked a friend nearby what all the commotion was about.  *Its supposed to land in one minute!* News crews specked the sidewalks and I began to grow very curious.  I had forgotten that this big celestial event was today.  I took up a spot for myself where I could see the horizon of the water and waited.  Everyone watched in anticipation as nothing happened during the time that was given for this event.  I looked closer at the water and then shouted, *RUN!*
The water was gathering at a rapid speed and rushing to shore, a tsunami was on its way.
I ran inside the building, down the hall, my legs wouldn't carry my fast enough, I kept tripping. The screams from outside were horrifying as the water drowned the whole city.
My legs kept going limp, but I dragged myself to the next exit.  It was dark now, I wasn't sure why it was dark when it was only mid-afternoon, but I pressed on.  I looked up into the sky as I entered the parking lot.  The sun was, but a dim light in the sky, a reddish orange and all of a sudden it disappeared.  The sun had died and now it would all begin.


That was my dream. :) I had a good alien dream too (that possible could be linked to this dream), but Ill spare you from the details.

Turbo Tax

Ah, to be done with the dreaded taxes.  First time, ladies and gentlemen, have I filed ALL on my own! My mom has been doing it for me since I was 14....but now I'm all grown up. Sad.

Hehe, actually I'm quite pleased with the money that should be in my bank account soon. :)

Anyhow, besides all of that life has been crazy.  I'm running on 2 hours of sleep and my eyelids are drooping on me.  I have tomorrow partially off (from work at least) but I have school all day. Bleh. 

This entry is going to be very short because I am literally falling asleep as I type this.

night.....*YAWN*

The Bell Jar

Fantastic, brilliant book.  It was so good(The Bell Jar)!! Ive been meaning to read this book for so long (not knowing muchabout it, just knowing it was depressing and a classic), but I really wasn't excepting such a hauntingly, beautiful novel.   Ive already decided that at the end of my American Literature class Sylvia Plath is the author Id like to write my essay on.

Cars, Cars, Cars, and then some more CARS... why are you so expensive? Why will I always be in debt to somebody throughout my whole life? These simple life necessities are starting to weight down on my brain.
My goal has been to be as debt free as I can possibly be. I have not used a single credit card (nor do I plan to) and I paid for my first two semesters of school out of pocket.  But now Im going to school full time which is around $1,500 just for the classes at a community college not even including book prices.  I gave in and decided student loans I will do. But now I think about it and Im going to be bogged down with loans for the rest of my life! A car loan, school loan, house loan......! Thats crazy!  I was driving to the bank today to work out some minor details and I started thinking...WHAT IF, I dont get my dream job? WHAT IF, I don't even get a job that pays well at all!? HOW WILL I BE ABLE TO AFFORD IT ALL? Rent and payments??? How? Luckily, if anything I have the job I am currently at...but when I get my degree and start applying for jobs...?? What if nobody wants me? Or somebody does want me, but I make no money at it?
Well it will do me no good to worry about it all. So I will just take it as it comes and hope to god I can keep myself altogether.

My writing.. I haven't even begun this process yet. I have everything in my head and nothing down on paper. But I have hope. At the end of the Bell Jar there was a short biography about Sylvia Plath and apparently she had been planning to write the Bell Jar for 10 years, but was experiencing a *Novel Block.*
Now hopefully this does not continue on for 10 more years... although I guess it already almost has since I was 11 when I initially said *I AM GOING TO WRITE A NOVEL!* and began furiously scribbling down everything I could think of.  (Oh, the story was terrible, but how I wish I could read it all now..I had stacks and stacks of paper, but I threw it all away when I was like 13...)

Easter, meant nothing to me but another day to work.  Usually, I get all excited about holidays and put together little Easter egg baskets and such, but this year...I did nothing! I went car shopping and went to work.  Blah! Happy Belated Easter!!! <3

The Wreck of the Hesperus

My rooms looks the Wreck of the Hesperus.

I want to clean it up, but im lazy...and that time could be spent reading the Bell Jar. (Which is riveting and I cant put it down.)

I dont have much time to read either, which is why it takes awhile for me to finish a book (otherwise I could finish it the same day I started) but I decided that I need to make myself read more. I just read between classes and before bed etc. or on my lunch break at work. hehe. Its nice though to be reading again. 

Besides all of that... ive been working like crazy. I was scheduled another 6 days in a row of working and on Monday I close and Tuesday I open.... Im going to be very grumpy this week. :)
Although, hopefully tomorrow I can get a car!!! Wouldnt that be lovely?? Im not sure it will happen so fast though.....

I already picked out my classes for next semester (yes I am a huge nerd and I realize this semester isnt even over yet!)

Monday/ Wednesdays:  Ill be taking a Geography class and an Short Story and Novels class
Tuesdays/ Thursdays:  Speech Performance class and an intro to Literature (focused on Monster Fiction!!)

I will love all those classes except the Speech of course, but Speech is required... :(

Whyd you go stick your head in the oven?

So I finally officially finished Eat Pray Love and now have a new  book underway.
I was going to start Demian by Herman Hesse, but when I was at Borders yesterday I couldnt find it and I ended up starting to read the Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath.  So im going to read that first, but then ill travel on to the books suggested, of course book suggesting is still open so please suggest away!

At Borders I found 2 nice journals in which I intend to write my stories in.  Ive been meaning to put up a page on my blog that covers the progress of the book Im working on right now.

anyhoww I was going to write a really good entry in a story format, but time escapes me and I have to get to class.

Ill try to update tonight (tomorrow I think Im going to go look at cars!)

Positives

Thats Wall-E my first car which is now gone! Thanks Google Earth for this picture. :)

Unfortunately, my car was un-salvageable. The engine was completely shot! Anyhow, Im looking at the positive and the positives are all looking good!  1. I can finally get a car with speakers that work again (I blew my speakers out in Wall-E) 2. I can get a car that people wont yell at me for...(true story I had a guy once yell out his window that my car was ugly etc and made fun of me...on the freeway, yes. < during traffic > and then had an old guy gest about me getting a paint job...)
3. I can (hopefully) get a jeep or suv-ish vehicle, because thats what i really like....

SEE! Good stuff.

Well I have more bad news I guess...im still unsure of how I should feel about all of this , but my uncles mother is about to pass away, they gave her a week or two left to live.  Ive only known her for the past 2 or 3? years, but she has been sick ever since coming here to Hawaii and although shes a lovely lady you can just see how worn out she is by everything. So in a way shell be in a happier place. But its really weird...I feel sad, but not to where I want to cry lots? (then again shes still alive so ...) but then I feel really bad because MY grandma is close to her and my aunt and uncle sooooooo, ya.  Im supposed to go over to their house this Sunday to have dinner with them and say *goodbye* to grandma.  Im actually scheduled to work during that dinner, but im going to try and switch shifts so I can go, but is it just me or is that not going to be the most awkward dinner ever.  *Okay everybody eat, now say goodbye to grandma and wish her well in her afterlife.* Shes not dead yet!!!! Idk.

Anyhow......not much more to say.... school tomorrow.

PEACE