Birthday Time

20.

Damn....this is when it starts to all go downhill huh? In 5 years I'll start dreading birthdays. 

Sorry, for giving up on my blog guys.  I've just been so busy I decided my posts were pointless anyways.
But I'll try to post some more again, since I have quite a lot to talk about nowadays.

QUICK RECAP OF LIFE:
 * I'm taking 5 classes right now at the Univeristy of Hawaii (yay a real college)
* I will have my own Starbucks store to manage in about a month
* I'm no longer a teenager.
And that's probably it for the general details.... everything else is basically the same.   Of course, I have numerous stories in all areas of my life to share, but I won't try to condense it all to this one post.

In honor of my birthday I've decided to talk about my writing life....


I have too many ideas!


Too many ideas and I don't know how to get them all out on paper. As soon as I start writing and get to the second chapter of a book (I've entirely outlined) I end up getting a whole different idea...anybody else have this problem? 

I got really lucky and fate gave me the last seat in this Creative Writing class I'm taking right now. The teacher is amazing.  I got a chance to really ask her what she thought of my writing. (We already had 2 short stories due)
Short stories are harder for me in general. I like to be descriptive and give back round information (mostly because my stories are usually of the sci-fi genre or just pure fantasy...usually you need attention to detail for that).  Anyhow, her feedback was good and I'm kind of hanging by a thread on it.  She told me I do have the voice of a writer and that if I didn't have what it took, she'd be the first to tell me to go do something else.

 However, I just joined two writing sites (only one have I actually uploaded work to though). I posted 3 of my short stories online to this community. My first rating was good somebody + all my work....then of course, today I check again and somebody - them all.  Honestly, this sucks.  I really shouldn't have checked this today, because I'm really depressed now.  I'm starting to get nervous.  I can't seem to get my writing out unless its for class, but then my ideas are usually way too big for a short story....and the short story ends up not feeling right.  Does that make sense?

Anyhow, I'm trying not to let the negative rating get to me too much.  (It totally is)  But I'm not giving up yet.  Those aren't the best I can produce and I know it.  Its time to start really trying and dedicating a whole lot more time to my writing.  :D
Okay thats all for now...ty for reading my rant!!

No Time

AHH its so close to the end of this semester! Sorry for not keeping up with my blog gawd. I have been so busy.  Not to mention i decided (like an idiot) to start playing world of warcraft again and now im wasting time doing that instead of doing homework.....


Ya so I just found out i have like 4 tests next week and none of my work is done for them -.- Plus this Saturday is my grandmas 80th birthday party. So my family from out of state is in town and I have to find someway to hang out with them....work my 40hours...and go to class and do my studying hahaha
lovely.

So ill make a legit post in about a week when the tests and crap is over! Only jon reads this anyways, and hes afk for a month so MEH!

Fiction

WARNING! :)
Okay...so for those of you (you know the whole crowd of people that read this blog.....) anyhow if you are religious and easily offended..this is a warning that my blog today is going to be about religion and may not agree with your views.


BIBLE RANT andddddddddddddddd GO:

Agriculture started 10,000 years ago. Before agriculture humans were primarily forgers(hunters and gatherers). These are facts. So not even arguing time lines here we can tell by verse 2 in Genesis Chapter 4 that Abel and Cain were not one of the first humans seeing as they were obviously using some type of agriculture (although it looks like Abel was using pastoralism). 


2. Now Abel kept flocks, and Cain worked the soil....

These brothers however, might be a good analogy for something else.... the spread of agriculture. I recently read the book Ishmael and this was mentioned.  Abel would represent people using pastoralism and Cain represents the people who took part in Agriculture.  In that day it was common for warring to go on, especially against opposing people, in this case it was pastoralism vs. agriculture.  (Make sense?)

Moving on...

 ¹³ Cain said to the LORD, “My punishment is more than I can bear. ¹⁴ Today you are driving me from the land, and I will be hidden from your presence; I will be a restless wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.”
 

 <sup>HOLD UP. WAIT CAIN....did you just say, "WHOEVER"? LIKE PEOPLE OTHER THAN MOM AND DAD, because according to the bible that's all the humans on Earth at that time.  Adam, Eve and Cain.  Hm.....ya keep that in mind.


............17</sup> Cain made love to his wife, and she became pregnant and gave birth to Enoch................

And finally...where in the world does Cain find a wife?  Is this supposed to be like 15 years later when Eve cranks out his sister and they marry?   Incest or other people existing... One is just disgusting and would create unchanging genes that would be bad for the future of that race (which is the only race in existence and the only set of genes)  Other people...indict that Adam and Eve were not the first people on Earth. Either way you look at it...the bible fails. 

So what do we learn from all of this?

That the bible is not something to be taken literally.  My own interpretation of the bible is this...Fiction.  One of the first fiction books created.  I could definitely see myself writing crazy stories like these if I lived back then..  Anyhow, thanks for listening to my rant!

A Little Late

Okay Guys! Heres one of my Avatar photos.  Ill have to post more later because Joes mom took them and shes always gone nowadays... (I should have some good full body shots of my blueness, because believe me...I was all blue..)

Anyhow, so I ended up dressing up for Halloween, carving my pumpkin, going to a haunted house and eating a caramel apple  (which was actually quite disgusting)! SO YAY FOR HALLOWEEN.   I hear mention a  couple of you still wanted to send in pictures of your pumpkins? Please do and Ill be sure to post them still. :D JON I NEED YOUR INFO <3 Email me  ;) I gotta send you some stuff!

Bleh Im burning up here in hawaii its 81 degrees :( SO HOT and MUGGY BLEH...

 Okay so hope you all dont mind, this is going to be a super random post about the exciting month of November, so be prepared....

OH NOVEMBER:

November 2nd:

The 13th Book in the Wheel of Time series! (Im in the midst of this series, but am very excited, there is only one more book to be released in the series)

November 19th:

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1:

November 22nd:

My Chemical Romance Comes Out with Their Fourth CD!  November 22nd!!! I cant wait for this C.D.....Like you have no idea...

November 25th:

Thanksgiving! 

November 26th:

Black Friday!

and although this is not part of November I have to announce it along with all my other exciting releases!

DECEMBER 7th:

CATACLYSM (NEW WORLD OF WARCRAFT EXPANSION)

Okay now that, that is over! I need your help... What are some Thanksgiving Traditions you or your family does? I need to make a new list of things to do for Thanksgiving, so please leave me some suggestions !

Pumpkins!

Its a day away from Halloween and unfortunately my pumpkin carving contest only got one response, but thats okay!!! THANKS JON FOR PARTICIPATING i <3 YOU LONG TIME!!

So heres Jons awesome pumpkins!!!

WHOO HOO!! Thanks Jon!!!! Your pumpkins look awesome and Im just assuming nobody else is turning in their pumpkin carvings so I will declare you winner of my contest!

:)

SO I know Ive been missing for a couple weeks....Sorrry. I have a lot going on right now.  With the beginning of the holidays at work (and crazy drama which I cant speak of yet because Im paranoid) but drama at work and lots of school work.  Ive read 3 books in one week, yupp. 

Anyhow, Im very excited for halloween. My costume is a little lame because I didnt want to spend 50 bucks on a costume and now Im thinking I just should have, since the stuff I bought probably collectively cost just as much.  But I am going to be an Avatar :) Yupp. Pretty awesome.  Although, I will be working all night so no trick or treating for me (although I really have never gone "officially" before anyways).  Well Ill post a halloween post, but for now that is all!!!
Happy Halloween Folks.

Books...Books...andd some more Books!!!

Newly Released:
Ape House

Sara Gruen is the author of Water for Elephants (which is sitting patiently on my shelf to be read). This book (Water for Elephants) is  being made into a movie starring Robert Pattinson and Reese Witherspoon. This new book Ape House has become my next targeted book for reading. As you all know I am currently in an Anthropology course and this book is exactly what I need right now. I don't know all the details of Ape House, but to put lightly..there's lots of ape and human interaction. Has anyone ever seen videos of Koko?? I recently watched a whole documentary about Koko and since then have wished that I, myself could find an ape to communicate with. They fascinate me.  Heres a good video of Koko talking with Penny, her trainer.






Currently Reading:

Melal 

I'm not very far into this book.  It was assigned by my English teacher who also happens to be the author of this book. -.- You can imagine what classes are like.  Barclay's writing style is a bit too descriptive for my taste, it makes the book a bit boring.  He also switches characters every other chapter, which I would discourage (unless you have 2 solid characters, not 5!)  Right now the chapters switch between..oh...I think four or five different characters and stories.  Its a little overkill and I find it funny actually, since on my short story I was told (by him)  my own switch of POV was distracting. -.-  Anyhowwww....the book is set in the Marshallese Islands. The Marshallese Islands have actually been a victim of the U.S. We have done countless atomic bombing tests in the ocean RIGHT next to those islands and even on some of them.  This has introduced heavy radiation to these people and the worst part of it, is that this was intentionally done. We intentionally gave people radiation poisoning, just so we could study the effects.  The have taken away a good amount of their islands and stuck 15,000 Marshallese people on one island that is only a mile wide and about two rock throws long.  So in the historical sense, this book sounds like it might be interesting (and I hope to god that this book picks up!) but as of right now its slow moving....




Book Recommendations:

 Angelica

 This is actually a book series.  There are I believe 5 in all? Believe me these books are worth your time! These books have a lot of culture in them.  You have four different races and culture of people living in one world.  In this world the Angel race is seen as the peacekeepers.  They are called upon if help is needed etc. They also keep the world in tact. Every year there is a mandatory singing festival held at the center of the world. Every race is required to be present and at this festival the Angels offer up their beautiful singing voices to the gods.  


This book series is so unique. I read these books back to back and I have to say by the end of it I just wanted to live in this world. In fact, I still want to live in this world. So if you get a second, check out these books!!!!! 

WARNING: IF YOU WANT TO READ THIS SERIES, DONT FOLLOW THE ACTUAL ORDER.


I read the series as following and I would suggest you do the same. The first book they tell you to read should really be the last (because personally the last book shattered my world)
I read as following:
Angelica
Archangel
Angel Seeker
Jovahs Angel
Alleluia Files


Its totally up to you of course. :) Happy Reading.

My First Pumpkin

SO I DID IT!!! I CARVED MY FIRST PUMPKIN, ALLLLL BY MYSELF!!!

I was at the store just picking up some necessities: cheese sticks, diet pepsi, cake and chips. :)  when BAM huge pumpkins on the floor in front of me. I almost literally jumped up and down when I saw them just hanging out under the fridges in Safeway. I was so excited, because I had just been thinking to myself a few minutes ago (as I was fondling the miniature pumpkins) where I was going to buy my big pumpkin for my pumpkin carving. I was thinking that I am such a bad procrastinator that if I have to go very far to get a big one, I may not actually do it :( BUT NEVER FEAR, I BOUGHT MY PUMPKIN AND CARVED IT TOO!
So enjoy, I didn't take any pictures of myself with it yet, because I looked pretty gnarly tonight.

Just finishing cleaning out the insides!

Done cleaning, time to start drawing my design!!

Cant see it super well, but there is an outline of dots on there.

Half way done carving!!

Done carving!!!!

HOORAY! HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

ZOMBIES

Hoooooraay!!!!
Today is Time Travel day, but before I continue with my content I cant help but express my emotions for this video above.  Today the Chile miner are being rescued!! I dont know why it is so emotional for me, but I really cried watching this video.  The psychological distress of being stuck underground for so long terrifies me and I didn't even have to live through it. So watch it or don't, just know that 31 more miners are on their way out of a living hell, so rejoice for them!!!


The History:


ZOMBIES!!

Did you know Zombies are real?
Well you better believe it, because they are!

(If you want to read the full article go ahead and check it out here, otherwise Ill do a quick summary for you. )


It all started in Haiti. (In the 1980s) People would die and get buried by there loved ones.  But in Haiti the dead weren't staying underground.  Sightings of the families loved ones reappearing to them years later started to trickle around towns and villages.  These people who had "risen from the dead" were called Zombies. 

This of course is impossible.  The real explanation behind these Haitian zombies is pretty fascinating.
These people who were supposedly dead had actually been poisoned by workers of the government.  The people poisoned all had one thing in common, they were criminals.  The poison used is actually called tetrodotoxtin which comes from fugu (puffer fish). Some of you might be familiar with fugu which is a delicacy in Japan. This tetrodotoxin was used in a special paste that was spread over the victims skin. The poison then induced its victim into a paralyzed state where they were conscious, but appeared to be dead. Family members (not knowing that they had been poisoned) declared their loved ones dead and buried them, just like the government wanted. The people were then dug back up during the night time (by the government) and taken to Zombie camps where they made the criminals become slaves of the government.  Zombies escaped the sites now and then, revisiting their family and telling them about what happened.  Soon word spread through the Haitians of what happened to those that stole, killed and rebelled.  And guess what, Haiti's crime rates were extremely low and their country was cohesive and wealthy.

My Thoughts:

As of right now...I have some extremely deep thoughts about this subject matter. I had it all typed out and ready to post when my boyfriend yelled at me to not post it...because he actually thinks I'm on to something and posting it would mean losing all my rights to this hypothesis. 
This is all so cryptic I am so sorry, but right now my mind is reeling with thoughts! I think I just stumbled on something that could be crazy if this hypothesis is plausible. ......I know, you dont understand anything I just said. So lets end this right now so I can go research my hypothesis and return to you with more complete thoughts!!

In conclusion, Zombies are in fact real. :) 

The Social Network

Okay...so Im sorry for not posting for the past weekish.

This Tuesday I had to put down one of my rats, Gypsy.  I was really close to Gypsy and her sickness came on really suddenly. She got a brain tumor and I had to put her down. :( I am quite sad, I have to admit. I only have one rat now (I use to have 3) so its harder now, we really have to watch this last rat and keep her company all day. I feel so bad for her.
Ugh gawd. Looking at her picture makes me so sad. :(
I had dreams about her the other night, that she was in the cage with Pixel still.. okay anyhow.  So in honor of Gypsy my blog lives on and I continue to use her name as my own, because I love my little runt.



The show must go on....


Today is Theater Thursday!

 The Social Network

 97% Rating on Rotten Tomatoes 


My thoughts:
Amazing movie, truly.  If you haven't gone to see this movie you need to! Definitely, the top movie of the year right now and I'm not the only one with that opinion.  Even for folks who don't even go on face book, this movie delivers. (Just ask my boyfriend who is 100% anti-facebook)  

Interesting Facts about The Social Network:

 The Social Network was made without aquiring rights from Mark Zuckerberg or Facebook! Instead this movie is an interpretation based off of the book The Accidental Billionaires, by Ben Mezrich, which was very biased in its recounting of the story.

In a recent onstage interview, he (Mark Zuckerberg) said, “Honestly, I wish that when people try to do journalism or write stuff about Facebook that they at least try to get it right.” He later added, “The movie is fiction.” 

(resourced from)

In conclusion...while watching this movie please remember that a lot of this is fiction and the way they portray all these characters may not be entirely true.  But if you want to learn the real side of things google, google...and then google some more. (Thats what I did immediately after the movie) However! Even though facebook is really upset by the making of this movie, It is still an amazing movie! And honestly, I don't think it was as bad as they make it out to be. I don't want to spoil the movie, so I'm trying to be candid, I hope this all makes sense.

Released Tomorrow - October 8th!!:


Nowhere Boy



Synopsis: Imagine... John Lennon's childhood. Liverpool 1955: a smart and troubled fifteen year-old is hungry for experience. In a family full of secrets, two incredible women clash over John: Mimi, the buttoned-up Aunt who raised him, and Julia, the prodigal mother. Yearning for a normal family, John escapes into the new and exciting world of rock n' roll where his fledgling genius finds a kindred spirit in the teenage Paul McCartney. Just as John begins his new life, tragedy strikes. But a resilient young man finds his voice - and an icon explodes into the world.  ( Synopsis Quoted From) Set in Liverpool in 1955, "Nowhere Boy" follows a 15-year-old John Lennon as he goes through the life experiences that will give birth to "Nowhere...
I am a huge Beatles fan!!! I cant wait for this movie, I just hope it does well, it hasn't been very well publicized and that does worry me. 

Pumpkin Carving Contest

So pass the word along!  I have no idea how many people will ACTUALLY carve pumpkins, but I'm really hoping for a couple.  
I decided today that I want to make this years holiday season very festive for myself. I was originally going to just jump right into Christmas (yes, I admit I might have played a couple Christmas songs today) but Jons blog totally inspired me to start with the first and most festive of the holidays, Halloween. My first Halloween goal is to carve a pumpkin!   Believe it or not I have never actually taken part in this festivity before. :( Sad, I know. 
So follow along on my holiday journey this year! Ill be posting of a to-do list ,in my side bar ,to take part in for each holiday. (And dont worry Ill post pictures of my journey as well! )LETS CARVE PUMMMPPPKINSSS................

Fiction Friday

Hot Off The Press:

Fall of Giants

Ken Follett's Pillars of the Earth and World Without End are modern classics. Follett returns with Fall of Giants, the first in a new trilogy that will follow five families through the major events of the twentieth century. Fall of Giants takes place around World War I, but also touches on the Russian Revolution, coal mining and women's suffrage. 

My Take:

This book is definitely going on my book list! I loved Pillars of the Earth and World Without End, so if you haven't read those yet you must go read them right now! I will do a highlight on those books soon, I'm sure. 

(warning: This book only got 2 stars on Amazon so far... yikes!)

Book of the Week:

The Hunger GamesOkay, so not exactly ONE book of the week, but since the series is complete Im going to go ahead and hit all three at once.

Lets start by saying this series was riveting! These books are page turners and I was finished with each in a day, which is the downside (the size of these books is on the smaller side).  Nevertheless, the storyline is solid.  This series is about a girl who is placed in a futuristic setting where the government controls everything (there is a lot more to it than that, go read the book!) and one of the events they do in the new world is send a bunch of teenage kids into an arena to kill each other.  I'm not going to say anything more then that, you have to go read these books ASAP, if you haven't already.

Currently Reading:

 Unwind

Im almost done with Unwind, it’s an easy read, definitely.  The storyline is interesting, but Its definitely doesn’t make it on my favorite book list.  This story, like Hunger Games, is also set in the future (I believe this is even a series) and in this future, abortion has been made illegal.  However, instead of abortion you can *unwind* your children at the ages of 13-18.  Unwinding means basically kill your children.  The parents, unhappy with their child for some reason can choose to sign their child over between these ages and have them unwound.  That’s the set up of the story, quite interesting.  I’m not sure if it’s the writing style or just the way Shusterman words things, I’m just not as excited about this story as I was with The Hunger Games. 

Okay well that’s what I think! Now let me know what you think.

Two Questions of the Day:

*Have you read any of these books mentioned and what do you think about them*

*Do you think you'll end up reading any of these books(if you haven’t already) *

The New Scheme of Things!

Starting tomorrow I will be starting my new blogging scheme which will go as follows:
Monday =Mundane Mondays (World Topics)

Tuesday = Time Travel Tuesdays (History Topics)

Wednesday = Workout Wednesdays (Workout Topics)

Thursday = Theater Thursday (Movie Topics)

Friday = Fiction Fridays (Book Topics)

Saturday = Superficial Saturdays (Random Topics)

Sunday = Slumbering Sundays (Dream Topics)

Hopefully, this will help me stay more organized and involved. I am really excited about it and I picked topics that I know I can keep generating material for, easily.  So we*ll see how this goes and I may tweak the days as I go.  

Anyhow, thats all for tonight. I just wanted to redo my blog and get myself involved with everything again. Talking about my life constantly bores me and most of the time the things I think about and inspire me to write all stem from the ideas and topics I will be sharing soon!!

Global Suicide

Never touch a piece of Big Red gum and then itch your eye. Just trust me.

Dear Mankind, 
          By now I am sure you have heard of a little thing called Global Warming. I prefer to call this Global Suicide.  As you know us humans are the main reason this catastrophe is even happening.  We are too selfish to think that this world has any other reason than to be our slave. As a result we have caused (through air pollution) probably the worst scenario ever imagined.  Ice is melting- sea levels rising, increase carbon dioxide- increase temperatures- plant  annihilation..where do you think this chain of events leads to.. 

Exactly. 
So...mankind, what will it take for you to realize that you are killing our Earth and everything on it(insert question mark here, because keyboard is broken) My guess....humans will continue polluting our atmosphere and within the next 100 years our Earth will continue to decline faster and faster. And by the time people actually start realizing that Global Warming (Global Suicide) is happening, it will be too late.  In conclusion: 
Take action bitches, lets start a revolution before its too late. (Unless of course your totally fine with your kids living through one of the most horrific events in history....)

 

NANANANANANANANANANANANA

Blah Blah Blah

Three days off in a row!! Starting tomorrow... I cant wait. Although 2 out of 3 are spent at school soooo -.- Oh well.
At least I get to sleep in, thats all that really matters anyways.

Its 3:10am right now. I woke up a bit earlier then need be for my morning shift this morning SO honoring my blogging vow I decided to update real quick.

Life sucks. When you start getting one part of your life organized something comes up and just fucks something else up. Ive been doing good at work, school and even exercising and then fricken drama has to happen. (not even worth fighting for drama) thats the worst. When the argument is just sooo not even worth your time. So my plan is to just apologize (even though I still think Im in the right) and just get this out of my life, because I dont need it and it just adds to my stress.

I have Shin Splints.... very painful and the way Im dealing with them isnt very smart, but I cant lose my momentum so Im just going to keep on running through the pain of sharp daggers stabbing my shin bones.

I dont have anything philosophical to say Im sorry and this post is very mundane and boring, but its all I can do at 3am...Sorry!!!! Im off to work now, peace out hommies.. Ill get around to reading blogs today and responding (I promise) if that means anything.

GyPSy

Perfectionist...

Okay, I need to put a warning label on this post -.- because how I feel right now and what I am about to say is going to sound extremely cocky and stuck up, I am sorry. I am not the type of person to go around bragging etc, but this is my blog and I don't want to have to keep secrets from my own online journal! :D

*. I'm a perfectionist and this is starting to drive me insane. I got a 38 out of 40 on my Anthropology test and a 39 out of 40 on my Geography. So why then, do I feel so shitty? I feel dumb for missing those points and I cant help thinking I COULD HAVE GOTTEN 100% and I BLEW IT!

**. Good news is though...I feel pretty good about my writing. We had to write short stories for my English class and so far mine has a 96% with a couple *Really nice writing* comments and a couple circled metaphors that my teacher liked. Usually, I wouldn't feel proud,because there is always something wrong with my work to me, but my teacher wrote a book that got a couple good awards and I believe that he knows the literary world pretty well. Now, obviously, hes a teacher, so maybe he was just writing all that on my paper to be encouraging etc and he didn't really think to himself while reading my story *Hey this girl has got something here..* one can dream right>insert question mark here < Damn I need a new keyboard....

***. Since Ive started to get a good rhythm together, balancing 5 classes, 40 hours a week of work and exercising 5 days a week...Ive decided to start throwing in writing sessions back into my schedule. The past month my writing has gotten away from me, but with having to write papers for school etc I am starting to really get that itch to create some verbiage!

****. EXERCISE and EAT LESS... my main goals right now. Ive noticed, that when I work towards this goal I am able to get more things done in my life and I feel happier about everything. I also get a little bit of confidence, which I think I need. SO Ive started exercising a lot (or trying to sometimes I get off schedule with school events etc) I decided though, since my schedule fluctuates so much to not stick to a certain time or day, but rather set an *exercise at least 5 days a week motto* I walk twice a week with my mom, so that's 2 days right there. The other three I will be spending running and doing ab workouts. Anyhow, the problem with all of this is how critical I get of myself. I start going to the extreme and telling myself skipping lunches, dinners etc would be best and help me lose weight fast etc. But come on, if we*re being realistic starving yourself is great for fast results, but it wont last. PLUS I have found out that I am not exactly capable of fully starving myself. So no worries there, food is just too much of a friend these days.

Tis all for now! I have a lot of ranting to get out of my system, but hopefully soon my posts will become more entertaining, no promises!

Chinchillas

Blogging is a lot like religion.
You blog when thinks are in the shits... you blog when life is suddenly fabulous, but when it comes to blogging about the everyday mundane you somehow fall off the wagon.  At least that's what happened to me.
 Of course you start blogging about the mundane in the beginning, but like praying you never get an answer, so then you start asking yourself what the point of it all was again...

Anyhow, luckily things are bit in the shits, which means the perfect weather for blogging, aye?  

Its been awhile, I apologize for my absence and for not keeping up to date with everybody's blogs! I really am sorry and hopefully I will get better at this.  
But lets not concentrate on what a terrible person I have been okay ?
MOVING FORWARD...

News #1.  I have officially decided to double-major!!! After a year of thinking and brainstorming I can confidently say I will be majoring in English and Computer Science.  However, I cannot confidently say where I will be attending college......which brings me to >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
News#2.   Joes mom is losing her job, as a result...we may have to move.... and by move I mean probably states. Luckily, I have a full time job and can support myself so Im not toooooo worried, however, there are some ligistical things this situation brings up for me that has started to get me a bit stressed...so stressed that...........
News#3. I have a face twitch that wont go away, if its still there tomorrow it will be the third consecutive day (everyone is telling me this can easily be caused by stress or lack of sleep) 
News#4. Back to college though...I already applied to a University for the spring and now that I have no idea what is going to happen I am a bit nervous.  My dream has always been to leave Hawaii ASAP and go to a real University on the mainland.  This whole situation can work out in about 3 different ways as I see it...1. we stay here, but probably move to a small apartment.  2. We move to a different state, I (hopefully) can transfer to a new store and keep my job, and I get into a University I have always dreamed of going to.  3. They pick a state I hate or  I cant transfer credits to a college or I cant transfer stores and I have no job....who knows what will happen.
News#5.  I have suddenly become obsessed with my weight and cant stop worrying about it all.  My goal is to become really really skinny again, but getting there is quite hard with 5 classes, 40+hrs a week at a job, a book list, a novel I am writing and a boyfriend. Im determined though and I KNOW it will happen, but right now Im just in this phase of being so ashamed of what i am now.... its a terrible thing and I wish this feeling on no one.

Thats enough bitching for one day.....so I will leave you with my new obsession....CHINCHILLAS!

200

200 pages complete....




Ive been working lottts...but everyday Ive been reading and writing (no more t.v. for me!) Ive finally hit 200 pages! Im almost half way done, just have to edit it after this... CRAZY!
If I can keep up my pace Ill be editing my book in a month and a half. Alright, well I have to work at 4am...so I'm going to read myself into a coma.

Adjectives

I'm happy.  

Now let me explain...
I have already found my soul mate and live with him.  I already have a stable career that has put me on the road to success.  I am writing.
The last is what makes everything complete. Im writing.  Im about half way done with my first novel and Im breathing words.

My schedule is quite busy, especially during the school year which is about to start.  My goal for the summer was to start weaving in an exercise routine into my daily schedule.  So as marked on my new shiny planner, I went on my run today.  Within my first couple steps I was seeing adjectives.  I breathed in and the air was heavy on my tongue, flowers called out to be described, tangled trees gasped of life, houses whispered to me their secrets and gates told a history untold.
I had no choice, so I named them all. 
As I ran I found trees, houses, branches, leaves, cars, abandoned toys, paint, mountains, sand ..anythinnng and then I put adjectives to it.  Rusty, red, bright, tall, giant, monstrous, round, full. I added metaphors to ordinary flowers, tear drops, blueberries, cherries, totems, etc
Best run I have had, by far.
Everything ached for me to describe it and I happily strung together adjectives as I ran by and dubbed them.
But the best part of it all was in the midst of my run a word jumped out at me, carved into a piece of wood was the word ..Gypsy. 
Yupp. Gypsy....its like nature was talking back. Crazy right? Gypsy??? Its not a common name like Sarah, Sandy, Jessica, or something.... :) I admit I laughed out loud, yupp as I ran, I laughed.  Twice actually. (I laughed the first time because in the beginning of my run/ adjective game a really attractive guy came running buy and a lot of adjectives popped into my head then :P)
Okay, well its time for me to go back downstairs to my reading nook.  I have successfully exercised today and exercised my brain as well.
GYPSY

The Words On My Breath...

I have been avoiding updating because I did in fact see Johnny Depp and I even have a video of it...but seeing as its not on MY camera I couldnt download it to my computer correctly and Joes mom still hasnt uploaded it and transferred it to mine. SO i give up waiting.  Youll just have to take my word for it.  Heres some pictures though...  So I didnt take these photos.  I have to admit this was on a different night posted by my aunt who worked special duty as their police officer.  And of course the night I went Johnny wasnt hugging people and shaking hands with them....so Im thinking  I might try to go again, hes a real sweetheart that man.


BACK TO MY LITERARY LIFE NOW...
Ive done good.  Ive read 2 books recently, the third Harry Potter and the book Shiver.  Of course...these were completely out of order and I SHOULD have been finishing off World Without End which I started awhile ago.  I cant help it though, im just stuck in this fantasy world, all I want is dragons, werewolves and wizards who can fly on brooms.

Ive been writing 10 pages a day on and off and Im really excited about how far Ive gotten. Im about half way done with this novel. MY first complete novel. Ugh what a relief it will be to just be done with the whole idea.  Ive been trying to accomplish this for ....hm 10 years now? I started when I was 9....Obviously, not on the same book, but I started attempting to write my first novel at nine - which I regret throwing away when I was about 12 and angsty. What Id give to go back and read what I wrote. Thats the best right?  When you pick up your old notebooks filled with pages upon pages of writing that you don't even remember.  You start reading your own work and suddenly your drawn in by these words you didn't even think you knew. I get giddy, I always think,... I wrote this? Really?  Of course in the middle of a project thats not how your writing looks to you.  It looks young and thin, and you are constantly adding words and description. You go back to edit and end up throwing away pages of words because it just doesn't feel good enough. Thats how I get anyways. I have to admit I am extremely nervous for those editing stages, I have a feeling the first two chapters will take about a year until I feel satisfied.

Do you ever have those days...where you look at something and you feel like you could write five paragraphs about it?
Whenever Id be driving to school there was just this one tree that sparked something in me and Id start writing out descriptions in my head of every little leaf, tree, shrub or cloud I saw. This happens often to me...someone I work with makes a face or a gesture and I immediately collect it into my bank of memories to pull out when I describe that action in a story.  

The seductive words of novels pull me in and when I'm there I feel complete - I feel happy, like I belong.  I just cant stay away....I need words and they need me.

Meeting Johnny Depp

Blah. No time for real entries these past couple of days. I feel really sick and I have a bad headache.  Regardless Im going to leave in about an hour to go watch some of the filming for Pirates 3!!!!! Johnny Depp is also going to be there and Ive heard lots of rumors about being able to meet him if you go to the site... so Im going to do it...as loser as that is. .... IDC!