Wednesday, November 10, 2010

No Time

AHH its so close to the end of this semester! Sorry for not keeping up with my blog gawd. I have been so busy.  Not to mention i decided (like an idiot) to start playing world of warcraft again and now im wasting time doing that instead of doing homework.....

Ya so I just found out i have like 4 tests next week and none of my work is done for them -.- Plus this Saturday is my grandmas 80th birthday party. So my family from out of state is in town and I have to find someway to hang out with my 40hours...and go to class and do my studying hahaha

So ill make a legit post in about a week when the tests and crap is over! Only jon reads this anyways, and hes afk for a month so MEH!

Thursday, November 4, 2010


WARNING! :) for those of you (you know the whole crowd of people that read this blog.....) anyhow if you are religious and easily offended..this is a warning that my blog today is going to be about religion and may not agree with your views.

BIBLE RANT andddddddddddddddd GO:

Agriculture started 10,000 years ago. Before agriculture humans were primarily forgers(hunters and gatherers). These are facts. So not even arguing time lines here we can tell by verse 2 in Genesis Chapter 4 that Abel and Cain were not one of the first humans seeing as they were obviously using some type of agriculture (although it looks like Abel was using pastoralism). 

2. Now Abel kept flocks, and Cain worked the soil....

These brothers however, might be a good analogy for something else.... the spread of agriculture. I recently read the book Ishmael and this was mentioned.  Abel would represent people using pastoralism and Cain represents the people who took part in Agriculture.  In that day it was common for warring to go on, especially against opposing people, in this case it was pastoralism vs. agriculture.  (Make sense?)

Moving on...

 13 Cain said to the LORD, “My punishment is more than I can bear. 14 Today you are driving me from the land, and I will be hidden from your presence; I will be a restless wanderer on the earth, and whoever finds me will kill me.”

 HOLD UP. WAIT CAIN....did you just say, "WHOEVER"? LIKE PEOPLE OTHER THAN MOM AND DAD, because according to the bible that's all the humans on Earth at that time.  Adam, Eve and Cain.  Hm.....ya keep that in mind.

............17 Cain made love to his wife, and she became pregnant and gave birth to Enoch................

And finally...where in the world does Cain find a wife?  Is this supposed to be like 15 years later when Eve cranks out his sister and they marry?   Incest or other people existing... One is just disgusting and would create unchanging genes that would be bad for the future of that race (which is the only race in existence and the only set of genes)  Other people...indict that Adam and Eve were not the first people on Earth. Either way you look at it...the bible fails. 

So what do we learn from all of this?

That the bible is not something to be taken literally.  My own interpretation of the bible is this...Fiction.  One of the first fiction books created.  I could definitely see myself writing crazy stories like these if I lived back then..  Anyhow, thanks for listening to my rant!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

A Little Late

Okay Guys! Heres one of my Avatar photos.  Ill have to post more later because Joes mom took them and shes always gone nowadays... (I should have some good full body shots of my blueness, because believe me...I was all blue..)

Anyhow, so I ended up dressing up for Halloween, carving my pumpkin, going to a haunted house and eating a caramel apple  (which was actually quite disgusting)! SO YAY FOR HALLOWEEN.   I hear mention a  couple of you still wanted to send in pictures of your pumpkins? Please do and Ill be sure to post them still. :D JON I NEED YOUR INFO <3 Email me  ;) I gotta send you some stuff!

Bleh Im burning up here in hawaii its 81 degrees :( SO HOT and MUGGY BLEH...

 Okay so hope you all dont mind, this is going to be a super random post about the exciting month of November, so be prepared....


November 2nd:
The 13th Book in the Wheel of Time series! (Im in the midst of this series, but am very excited, there is only one more book to be released in the series)

November 19th:

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1:

November 22nd:

My Chemical Romance Comes Out with Their Fourth CD!  November 22nd!!! I cant wait for this C.D.....Like you have no idea...

November 25th:


November 26th:

Black Friday!

and although this is not part of November I have to announce it along with all my other exciting releases!



Okay now that, that is over! I need your help... What are some Thanksgiving Traditions you or your family does? I need to make a new list of things to do for Thanksgiving, so please leave me some suggestions !

Saturday, October 30, 2010


Its a day away from Halloween and unfortunately my pumpkin carving contest only got one response, but thats okay!!! THANKS JON FOR PARTICIPATING i <3 YOU LONG TIME!!

So heres Jons awesome pumpkins!!!

WHOO HOO!! Thanks Jon!!!! Your pumpkins look awesome and Im just assuming nobody else is turning in their pumpkin carvings so I will declare you winner of my contest!


SO I know Ive been missing for a couple weeks....Sorrry. I have a lot going on right now.  With the beginning of the holidays at work (and crazy drama which I cant speak of yet because Im paranoid) but drama at work and lots of school work.  Ive read 3 books in one week, yupp. 

Anyhow, Im very excited for halloween. My costume is a little lame because I didnt want to spend 50 bucks on a costume and now Im thinking I just should have, since the stuff I bought probably collectively cost just as much.  But I am going to be an Avatar :) Yupp. Pretty awesome.  Although, I will be working all night so no trick or treating for me (although I really have never gone "officially" before anyways).  Well Ill post a halloween post, but for now that is all!!!
Happy Halloween Folks.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Books...Books...andd some more Books!!!

Newly Released:
Ape House
Sara Gruen is the author of Water for Elephants (which is sitting patiently on my shelf to be read). This book (Water for Elephants) is  being made into a movie starring Robert Pattinson and Reese Witherspoon. This new book Ape House has become my next targeted book for reading. As you all know I am currently in an Anthropology course and this book is exactly what I need right now. I don't know all the details of Ape House, but to put lightly..there's lots of ape and human interaction. Has anyone ever seen videos of Koko?? I recently watched a whole documentary about Koko and since then have wished that I, myself could find an ape to communicate with. They fascinate me.  Heres a good video of Koko talking with Penny, her trainer.

Currently Reading:

I'm not very far into this book.  It was assigned by my English teacher who also happens to be the author of this book. -.- You can imagine what classes are like.  Barclay's writing style is a bit too descriptive for my taste, it makes the book a bit boring.  He also switches characters every other chapter, which I would discourage (unless you have 2 solid characters, not 5!)  Right now the chapters switch between..oh...I think four or five different characters and stories.  Its a little overkill and I find it funny actually, since on my short story I was told (by him)  my own switch of POV was distracting. -.-  Anyhowwww....the book is set in the Marshallese Islands. The Marshallese Islands have actually been a victim of the U.S. We have done countless atomic bombing tests in the ocean RIGHT next to those islands and even on some of them.  This has introduced heavy radiation to these people and the worst part of it, is that this was intentionally done. We intentionally gave people radiation poisoning, just so we could study the effects.  The have taken away a good amount of their islands and stuck 15,000 Marshallese people on one island that is only a mile wide and about two rock throws long.  So in the historical sense, this book sounds like it might be interesting (and I hope to god that this book picks up!) but as of right now its slow moving....

Book Recommendations:

 This is actually a book series.  There are I believe 5 in all? Believe me these books are worth your time! These books have a lot of culture in them.  You have four different races and culture of people living in one world.  In this world the Angel race is seen as the peacekeepers.  They are called upon if help is needed etc. They also keep the world in tact. Every year there is a mandatory singing festival held at the center of the world. Every race is required to be present and at this festival the Angels offer up their beautiful singing voices to the gods.  

This book series is so unique. I read these books back to back and I have to say by the end of it I just wanted to live in this world. In fact, I still want to live in this world. So if you get a second, check out these books!!!!! 


I read the series as following and I would suggest you do the same. The first book they tell you to read should really be the last (because personally the last book shattered my world)
I read as following:
Angel Seeker
Jovahs Angel
Alleluia Files

Its totally up to you of course. :) Happy Reading.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

My First Pumpkin


I was at the store just picking up some necessities: cheese sticks, diet pepsi, cake and chips. :)  when BAM huge pumpkins on the floor in front of me. I almost literally jumped up and down when I saw them just hanging out under the fridges in Safeway. I was so excited, because I had just been thinking to myself a few minutes ago (as I was fondling the miniature pumpkins) where I was going to buy my big pumpkin for my pumpkin carving. I was thinking that I am such a bad procrastinator that if I have to go very far to get a big one, I may not actually do it :( BUT NEVER FEAR, I BOUGHT MY PUMPKIN AND CARVED IT TOO!
So enjoy, I didn't take any pictures of myself with it yet, because I looked pretty gnarly tonight.

Just finishing cleaning out the insides!
Done cleaning, time to start drawing my design!!
Cant see it super well, but there is an outline of dots on there.

Half way done carving!!

Done carving!!!!

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


Today is Time Travel day, but before I continue with my content I cant help but express my emotions for this video above.  Today the Chile miner are being rescued!! I dont know why it is so emotional for me, but I really cried watching this video.  The psychological distress of being stuck underground for so long terrifies me and I didn't even have to live through it. So watch it or don't, just know that 31 more miners are on their way out of a living hell, so rejoice for them!!!

The History:


Did you know Zombies are real?
Well you better believe it, because they are!

(If you want to read the full article go ahead and check it out here, otherwise Ill do a quick summary for you. )

It all started in Haiti. (In the 1980s) People would die and get buried by there loved ones.  But in Haiti the dead weren't staying underground.  Sightings of the families loved ones reappearing to them years later started to trickle around towns and villages.  These people who had "risen from the dead" were called Zombies. 

This of course is impossible.  The real explanation behind these Haitian zombies is pretty fascinating.
These people who were supposedly dead had actually been poisoned by workers of the government.  The people poisoned all had one thing in common, they were criminals.  The poison used is actually called tetrodotoxtin which comes from fugu (puffer fish). Some of you might be familiar with fugu which is a delicacy in Japan. This tetrodotoxin was used in a special paste that was spread over the victims skin. The poison then induced its victim into a paralyzed state where they were conscious, but appeared to be dead. Family members (not knowing that they had been poisoned) declared their loved ones dead and buried them, just like the government wanted. The people were then dug back up during the night time (by the government) and taken to Zombie camps where they made the criminals become slaves of the government.  Zombies escaped the sites now and then, revisiting their family and telling them about what happened.  Soon word spread through the Haitians of what happened to those that stole, killed and rebelled.  And guess what, Haiti's crime rates were extremely low and their country was cohesive and wealthy.

My Thoughts:

As of right now...I have some extremely deep thoughts about this subject matter. I had it all typed out and ready to post when my boyfriend yelled at me to not post it...because he actually thinks I'm on to something and posting it would mean losing all my rights to this hypothesis. 
This is all so cryptic I am so sorry, but right now my mind is reeling with thoughts! I think I just stumbled on something that could be crazy if this hypothesis is plausible. ......I know, you dont understand anything I just said. So lets end this right now so I can go research my hypothesis and return to you with more complete thoughts!!

In conclusion, Zombies are in fact real. :) 

Thursday, October 7, 2010

The Social Network Im sorry for not posting for the past weekish.

This Tuesday I had to put down one of my rats, Gypsy.  I was really close to Gypsy and her sickness came on really suddenly. She got a brain tumor and I had to put her down. :( I am quite sad, I have to admit. I only have one rat now (I use to have 3) so its harder now, we really have to watch this last rat and keep her company all day. I feel so bad for her.
Ugh gawd. Looking at her picture makes me so sad. :(
I had dreams about her the other night, that she was in the cage with Pixel still.. okay anyhow.  So in honor of Gypsy my blog lives on and I continue to use her name as my own, because I love my little runt.

The show must go on....

Today is Theater Thursday!

 The Social Network

 97% Rating on Rotten Tomatoes 

My thoughts:
Amazing movie, truly.  If you haven't gone to see this movie you need to! Definitely, the top movie of the year right now and I'm not the only one with that opinion.  Even for folks who don't even go on face book, this movie delivers. (Just ask my boyfriend who is 100% anti-facebook)  

Interesting Facts about The Social Network:

 The Social Network was made without aquiring rights from Mark Zuckerberg or Facebook! Instead this movie is an interpretation based off of the book The Accidental Billionaires, by Ben Mezrich, which was very biased in its recounting of the story.
In a recent onstage interview, he (Mark Zuckerberg) said, “Honestly, I wish that when people try to do journalism or write stuff about Facebook that they at least try to get it right.” He later added, “The movie is fiction.” 
(resourced from)

In conclusion...while watching this movie please remember that a lot of this is fiction and the way they portray all these characters may not be entirely true.  But if you want to learn the real side of things google, google...and then google some more. (Thats what I did immediately after the movie) However! Even though facebook is really upset by the making of this movie, It is still an amazing movie! And honestly, I don't think it was as bad as they make it out to be. I don't want to spoil the movie, so I'm trying to be candid, I hope this all makes sense.

Released Tomorrow - October 8th!!:

Nowhere Boy

Synopsis: Imagine... John Lennon's childhood. Liverpool 1955: a smart and troubled fifteen year-old is hungry for experience. In a family full of secrets, two incredible women clash over John: Mimi, the buttoned-up Aunt who raised him, and Julia, the prodigal mother. Yearning for a normal family, John escapes into the new and exciting world of rock n' roll where his fledgling genius finds a kindred spirit in the teenage Paul McCartney. Just as John begins his new life, tragedy strikes. But a resilient young man finds his voice - and an icon explodes into the world.  ( Synopsis Quoted From)
I am a huge Beatles fan!!! I cant wait for this movie, I just hope it does well, it hasn't been very well publicized and that does worry me. 

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Pumpkin Carving Contest

So pass the word along!  I have no idea how many people will ACTUALLY carve pumpkins, but I'm really hoping for a couple.  

I decided today that I want to make this years holiday season very festive for myself. I was originally going to just jump right into Christmas (yes, I admit I might have played a couple Christmas songs today) but Jons blog totally inspired me to start with the first and most festive of the holidays, Halloween.
My first Halloween goal is to carve a pumpkin!  
Believe it or not I have never actually taken part in this festivity before. :( Sad, I know. 
So follow along on my holiday journey this year! Ill be posting of a to-do list ,in my side bar ,to take part in for each holiday. (And dont worry Ill post pictures of my journey as well! )

Friday, October 1, 2010

Fiction Friday

Hot Off The Press:

Fall of Giants
Ken Follett's Pillars of the Earth and World Without End are modern classics. Follett returns with Fall of Giants, the first in a new trilogy that will follow five families through the major events of the twentieth century. Fall of Giants takes place around World War I, but also touches on the Russian Revolution, coal mining and women's suffrage. 

My Take:
This book is definitely going on my book list! I loved Pillars of the Earth and World Without End, so if you haven't read those yet you must go read them right now! I will do a highlight on those books soon, I'm sure. 
(warning: This book only got 2 stars on Amazon so far... yikes!)

Book of the Week:

The Hunger GamesOkay, so not exactly ONE book of the week, but since the series is complete Im going to go ahead and hit all three at once.

Lets start by saying this series was riveting! These books are page turners and I was finished with each in a day, which is the downside (the size of these books is on the smaller side).  Nevertheless, the storyline is solid.  This series is about a girl who is placed in a futuristic setting where the government controls everything (there is a lot more to it than that, go read the book!) and one of the events they do in the new world is send a bunch of teenage kids into an arena to kill each other.  I'm not going to say anything more then that, you have to go read these books ASAP, if you haven't already.

Currently Reading:

Im almost done with Unwind, it’s an easy read, definitely.  The storyline is interesting, but Its definitely doesn’t make it on my favorite book list.  This story, like Hunger Games, is also set in the future (I believe this is even a series) and in this future, abortion has been made illegal.  However, instead of abortion you can *unwind* your children at the ages of 13-18.  Unwinding means basically kill your children.  The parents, unhappy with their child for some reason can choose to sign their child over between these ages and have them unwound.  That’s the set up of the story, quite interesting.  I’m not sure if it’s the writing style or just the way Shusterman words things, I’m just not as excited about this story as I was with The Hunger Games. 

Okay well that’s what I think! Now let me know what you think.
Two Questions of the Day:
*Have you read any of these books mentioned and what do you think about them*
*Do you think you'll end up reading any of these books(if you haven’t already) *

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The New Scheme of Things!

Starting tomorrow I will be starting my new blogging scheme which will go as follows:
Monday =Mundane Mondays (World Topics)

Tuesday = Time Travel Tuesdays (History Topics)

Wednesday = Workout Wednesdays (Workout Topics)

Thursday = Theater Thursday (Movie Topics)

Friday = Fiction Fridays (Book Topics)

Saturday = Superficial Saturdays (Random Topics)

Sunday = Slumbering Sundays (Dream Topics)

Hopefully, this will help me stay more organized and involved. I am really excited about it and I picked topics that I know I can keep generating material for, easily.  So we*ll see how this goes and I may tweak the days as I go.  

Anyhow, thats all for tonight. I just wanted to redo my blog and get myself involved with everything again. Talking about my life constantly bores me and most of the time the things I think about and inspire me to write all stem from the ideas and topics I will be sharing soon!!

Global Suicide

Never touch a piece of Big Red gum and then itch your eye. Just trust me.

Dear Mankind, 
          By now I am sure you have heard of a little thing called Global Warming. I prefer to call this Global Suicide.  As you know us humans are the main reason this catastrophe is even happening.  We are too selfish to think that this world has any other reason than to be our slave. As a result we have caused (through air pollution) probably the worst scenario ever imagined.  Ice is melting- sea levels rising, increase carbon dioxide- increase temperatures- plant  annihilation..where do you think this chain of events leads to.. 
So...mankind, what will it take for you to realize that you are killing our Earth and everything on it(insert question mark here, because keyboard is broken) My guess....humans will continue polluting our atmosphere and within the next 100 years our Earth will continue to decline faster and faster. And by the time people actually start realizing that Global Warming (Global Suicide) is happening, it will be too late.  In conclusion: 
Take action bitches, lets start a revolution before its too late. (Unless of course your totally fine with your kids living through one of the most horrific events in history....)



Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Blah Blah Blah

Three days off in a row!! Starting tomorrow... I cant wait. Although 2 out of 3 are spent at school soooo -.- Oh well.
At least I get to sleep in, thats all that really matters anyways.

Its 3:10am right now. I woke up a bit earlier then need be for my morning shift this morning SO honoring my blogging vow I decided to update real quick.

Life sucks. When you start getting one part of your life organized something comes up and just fucks something else up. Ive been doing good at work, school and even exercising and then fricken drama has to happen. (not even worth fighting for drama) thats the worst. When the argument is just sooo not even worth your time. So my plan is to just apologize (even though I still think Im in the right) and just get this out of my life, because I dont need it and it just adds to my stress.

I have Shin Splints.... very painful and the way Im dealing with them isnt very smart, but I cant lose my momentum so Im just going to keep on running through the pain of sharp daggers stabbing my shin bones.

I dont have anything philosophical to say Im sorry and this post is very mundane and boring, but its all I can do at 3am...Sorry!!!! Im off to work now, peace out hommies.. Ill get around to reading blogs today and responding (I promise) if that means anything.


Friday, September 24, 2010


Okay, I need to put a warning label on this post -.- because how I feel right now and what I am about to say is going to sound extremely cocky and stuck up, I am sorry. I am not the type of person to go around bragging etc, but this is my blog and I don't want to have to keep secrets from my own online journal! :D

*. I'm a perfectionist and this is starting to drive me insane. I got a 38 out of 40 on my Anthropology test and a 39 out of 40 on my Geography. So why then, do I feel so shitty? I feel dumb for missing those points and I cant help thinking I COULD HAVE GOTTEN 100% and I BLEW IT!

**. Good news is though...I feel pretty good about my writing. We had to write short stories for my English class and so far mine has a 96% with a couple *Really nice writing* comments and a couple circled metaphors that my teacher liked. Usually, I wouldn't feel proud,because there is always something wrong with my work to me, but my teacher wrote a book that got a couple good awards and I believe that he knows the literary world pretty well. Now, obviously, hes a teacher, so maybe he was just writing all that on my paper to be encouraging etc and he didn't really think to himself while reading my story *Hey this girl has got something here..* one can dream right>insert question mark here < Damn I need a new keyboard....

***. Since Ive started to get a good rhythm together, balancing 5 classes, 40 hours a week of work and exercising 5 days a week...Ive decided to start throwing in writing sessions back into my schedule. The past month my writing has gotten away from me, but with having to write papers for school etc I am starting to really get that itch to create some verbiage!

****. EXERCISE and EAT LESS... my main goals right now. Ive noticed, that when I work towards this goal I am able to get more things done in my life and I feel happier about everything. I also get a little bit of confidence, which I think I need. SO Ive started exercising a lot (or trying to sometimes I get off schedule with school events etc) I decided though, since my schedule fluctuates so much to not stick to a certain time or day, but rather set an *exercise at least 5 days a week motto* I walk twice a week with my mom, so that's 2 days right there. The other three I will be spending running and doing ab workouts. Anyhow, the problem with all of this is how critical I get of myself. I start going to the extreme and telling myself skipping lunches, dinners etc would be best and help me lose weight fast etc. But come on, if we*re being realistic starving yourself is great for fast results, but it wont last. PLUS I have found out that I am not exactly capable of fully starving myself. So no worries there, food is just too much of a friend these days.

Tis all for now! I have a lot of ranting to get out of my system, but hopefully soon my posts will become more entertaining, no promises!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010


Blogging is a lot like religion.
You blog when thinks are in the shits... you blog when life is suddenly fabulous, but when it comes to blogging about the everyday mundane you somehow fall off the wagon.  At least that's what happened to me.
 Of course you start blogging about the mundane in the beginning, but like praying you never get an answer, so then you start asking yourself what the point of it all was again...

Anyhow, luckily things are bit in the shits, which means the perfect weather for blogging, aye?  

Its been awhile, I apologize for my absence and for not keeping up to date with everybody's blogs! I really am sorry and hopefully I will get better at this.  
But lets not concentrate on what a terrible person I have been okay ?

News #1.  I have officially decided to double-major!!! After a year of thinking and brainstorming I can confidently say I will be majoring in English and Computer Science.  However, I cannot confidently say where I will be attending college......which brings me to >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
News#2.   Joes mom is losing her job, as a result...we may have to move.... and by move I mean probably states. Luckily, I have a full time job and can support myself so Im not toooooo worried, however, there are some ligistical things this situation brings up for me that has started to get me a bit stressed that...........
News#3. I have a face twitch that wont go away, if its still there tomorrow it will be the third consecutive day (everyone is telling me this can easily be caused by stress or lack of sleep) 
News#4. Back to college though...I already applied to a University for the spring and now that I have no idea what is going to happen I am a bit nervous.  My dream has always been to leave Hawaii ASAP and go to a real University on the mainland.  This whole situation can work out in about 3 different ways as I see it...1. we stay here, but probably move to a small apartment.  2. We move to a different state, I (hopefully) can transfer to a new store and keep my job, and I get into a University I have always dreamed of going to.  3. They pick a state I hate or  I cant transfer credits to a college or I cant transfer stores and I have no job....who knows what will happen.
News#5.  I have suddenly become obsessed with my weight and cant stop worrying about it all.  My goal is to become really really skinny again, but getting there is quite hard with 5 classes, 40+hrs a week at a job, a book list, a novel I am writing and a boyfriend. Im determined though and I KNOW it will happen, but right now Im just in this phase of being so ashamed of what i am now.... its a terrible thing and I wish this feeling on no one.

Thats enough bitching for one I will leave you with my new obsession....CHINCHILLAS!

Saturday, August 14, 2010


200 pages complete....

Ive been working lottts...but everyday Ive been reading and writing (no more t.v. for me!) Ive finally hit 200 pages! Im almost half way done, just have to edit it after this... CRAZY!
If I can keep up my pace Ill be editing my book in a month and a half. Alright, well I have to work at I'm going to read myself into a coma.

Saturday, August 7, 2010


I'm happy.  

Now let me explain...
I have already found my soul mate and live with him.  I already have a stable career that has put me on the road to success.  I am writing.
The last is what makes everything complete. Im writing.  Im about half way done with my first novel and Im breathing words.

My schedule is quite busy, especially during the school year which is about to start.  My goal for the summer was to start weaving in an exercise routine into my daily schedule.  So as marked on my new shiny planner, I went on my run today.  Within my first couple steps I was seeing adjectives.  I breathed in and the air was heavy on my tongue, flowers called out to be described, tangled trees gasped of life, houses whispered to me their secrets and gates told a history untold.
I had no choice, so I named them all. 
As I ran I found trees, houses, branches, leaves, cars, abandoned toys, paint, mountains, sand ..anythinnng and then I put adjectives to it.  Rusty, red, bright, tall, giant, monstrous, round, full. I added metaphors to ordinary flowers, tear drops, blueberries, cherries, totems, etc
Best run I have had, by far.
Everything ached for me to describe it and I happily strung together adjectives as I ran by and dubbed them.
But the best part of it all was in the midst of my run a word jumped out at me, carved into a piece of wood was the word ..Gypsy. 
Yupp. Gypsy....its like nature was talking back. Crazy right? Gypsy??? Its not a common name like Sarah, Sandy, Jessica, or something.... :) I admit I laughed out loud, yupp as I ran, I laughed.  Twice actually. (I laughed the first time because in the beginning of my run/ adjective game a really attractive guy came running buy and a lot of adjectives popped into my head then :P)
Okay, well its time for me to go back downstairs to my reading nook.  I have successfully exercised today and exercised my brain as well.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The Words On My Breath...

I have been avoiding updating because I did in fact see Johnny Depp and I even have a video of it...but seeing as its not on MY camera I couldnt download it to my computer correctly and Joes mom still hasnt uploaded it and transferred it to mine. SO i give up waiting.  Youll just have to take my word for it.  Heres some pictures though...  So I didnt take these photos.  I have to admit this was on a different night posted by my aunt who worked special duty as their police officer.  And of course the night I went Johnny wasnt hugging people and shaking hands with Im thinking  I might try to go again, hes a real sweetheart that man.

Ive done good.  Ive read 2 books recently, the third Harry Potter and the book Shiver.  Of course...these were completely out of order and I SHOULD have been finishing off World Without End which I started awhile ago.  I cant help it though, im just stuck in this fantasy world, all I want is dragons, werewolves and wizards who can fly on brooms.

Ive been writing 10 pages a day on and off and Im really excited about how far Ive gotten. Im about half way done with this novel. MY first complete novel. Ugh what a relief it will be to just be done with the whole idea.  Ive been trying to accomplish this for 10 years now? I started when I was 9....Obviously, not on the same book, but I started attempting to write my first novel at nine - which I regret throwing away when I was about 12 and angsty. What Id give to go back and read what I wrote. Thats the best right?  When you pick up your old notebooks filled with pages upon pages of writing that you don't even remember.  You start reading your own work and suddenly your drawn in by these words you didn't even think you knew. I get giddy, I always think,... I wrote this? Really?  Of course in the middle of a project thats not how your writing looks to you.  It looks young and thin, and you are constantly adding words and description. You go back to edit and end up throwing away pages of words because it just doesn't feel good enough. Thats how I get anyways. I have to admit I am extremely nervous for those editing stages, I have a feeling the first two chapters will take about a year until I feel satisfied.

Do you ever have those days...where you look at something and you feel like you could write five paragraphs about it?
Whenever Id be driving to school there was just this one tree that sparked something in me and Id start writing out descriptions in my head of every little leaf, tree, shrub or cloud I saw. This happens often to me...someone I work with makes a face or a gesture and I immediately collect it into my bank of memories to pull out when I describe that action in a story.  

The seductive words of novels pull me in and when I'm there I feel complete - I feel happy, like I belong.  I just cant stay away....I need words and they need me.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Meeting Johnny Depp

Blah. No time for real entries these past couple of days. I feel really sick and I have a bad headache.  Regardless Im going to leave in about an hour to go watch some of the filming for Pirates 3!!!!! Johnny Depp is also going to be there and Ive heard lots of rumors about being able to meet him if you go to the site... so Im going to do loser as that is. .... IDC!

Monday, July 26, 2010

Dear Johnny

This entry is small and is an exception to my normal way of things, but my excitement cannot be contained!!!
Johnny Depp IS here on Oahu...not only is he here in Oahu...he is filming in the same town I work in!  The Black Pearl is also parked nicely in the bay in which I pass daily.  One day ill look back on this and roll my eyes at how stupid I am being right now, if I even met Mr. Depp I would have absolutely nothing to say, so whats the point of being so excited? What is this thrill I seek to see this character of a person in PERSON? I wish I knew....I only know that it is my desire, but if it happens Im sure ill be embarrassed with how the event turned out.  Its probably better to dream an event like this than to have it actually happen, since Im quite sure Johnny isnt going to see me and say *Hey there little lass you look like you're smart and witty, why don't you become my pen pal? Ive been looking for a good friend lately who I can share my hardships with.*
on that note Im going to go.....

Friday, July 23, 2010

A Message to the Serial Killer in my head...

Dear Arthur,
I know you are just a young 15 year old boy who loves to mutilate and kill people.  You have some sort of problem with your brain, the nice burly police officer tried to explain it to me, how seconds feel like years to you.  So when you said you would try to kill my aunt one day, you actually meant within the next couple of seconds and I was too late.  I know its hard for you to stay out of my brain, for some reason you've found a cozy little corner in there that you don't want to leave. And you've begun to slowly kill off the nice people in my head, along with a couple little children I never got a chance to meet, but I'm here to extract you, I'm here to murder you, I'm here to rip you from my pure brain and never let you come back. I'm sure you were behind those creepy goo monsters too, that took over all of Hawaii.  Well that's all about to change. When I go to sleep trying to dream of a land of unicorns, I really mean it, you got it? Good.  Okay Arthur I'm going back to bed now and you my friend must go find someone else*s mind to torture.

(Note:  Although Arthur if fictional, he really did torment my mind tonight and is the reason I am now sitting up trying not to go back to sleep. And for the record, I DO try to fall asleep with unicorns and dragons in my head, so why the hell do I get killers and goo monsters?)

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Whipped Strawberries

 90 pages = roughly 18,000 words

Writings been going very well.  Ive been hitting my target of 10 pages a day, almost every day. I'm currently at 90 pages :) Tomorrow ill hit my first 100 mark, I'm so excited.  Coming this far on one of my novels has really motivated me and brought me to a new high.  I think Ive finally gotten past the bad humps and will write whether I think its good or bad.

My first draft is written in longhand which I find intimidating, only because I fear I may never go back and type it all in -.-, but hopefully, the excitement of having a novel actually complete will compel me to take the final steps in my editing process. Once I have my rough draft complete (probably in a couple months if I can keep up the rate) then I can refine my writing and add sprinkle in the flowing sentences and paragraphs.  I think if I end up writing 500 pages longhand I could probably get like 600 in type only because of how rough this draft is I'm writing longhand.  Sometimes I just write a sentence of a noun and 3 adjectives strung together to get the general feel for things and move on.  Im also having a little bit of trouble with the third person, although, I think its getting better.  I went back and read some of my first person and I feel like its so much easier for me to write from, but for this book first person isn't really the ideal.  Id have to do my first 3 books in first person and my 4th in third person to tie it altogether, sounds interesting, but it could also completely lose a reader and ruin the end entirely for them.  I think I should stay consistent. 

A quick note on longhand and then I'm wrapping this rant up-  Ive been searching for a blog entry or somebody to talk about longhand and the editing process.  I'm SURE I haven't looked thoroughly enough, but I'm really curious. If you were to write a novel longhand would you write it all first and then go back and type in? Or would you write /type/ write/ the project isn't so daunting?  Ive tried the write/type/write/type which I feel like makes sense so the overall project isn't so bad,however, it also gets me (personally) stuck in the editing process and the rest of the story never ends up coming out because by the time I'm done typing out /editing the first chapter I'm over it all.   Am I crazy?? So I'm writing the whole thing by hand first and THEN typing...blah..

Strawberries + Whip Cream + Sugar = Delicious 

Monday, July 19, 2010

Your Stalker

I read your work in silence, quietly admiring your work of art.  I grumble to myself about my inadequate abilities as a writer and how I wished I was more like you.  I sit disturbed, wondering if I should contact you.  What would I say to you?  How do I begin?  Ive always kept to myself, so why now?

I'm obsessed with the new ideas that float in and out of my head, unable to commit myself to just one.  I bite my nails in frustration, it shouldn't be this hard.  If there was a god, why would he give me something I'm so passionate about, but yet not give me the skills to accomplish my dream?

I read another entry you've written, this one is really good.  The effortless wit and vocabulary in this piece astounds me and I sit green with envy.  I fantasize about becoming your friend; emailing each other chapters we've written and chatting eagerly about our favorite authors. 

I sit at the table with my pen in hand, but not one word drops unto the empty page.  I cringe as I remember what great characters you've created and I wonder if I should just give up my dream; how will I ever compare?
I force myself to write a couple pages, even though my dialogue is cheesy and my descriptions forced.

I will keep working, fanatically, until you notice me, until I become worthy of being your friend.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

For Stella

   The world is big, yet I am small. My whiskers get in the way of my eyesight, luckily, most of the time I forget they are there and I do not get agitated, as I am right now.  Its hard to be small in such a big world, but I think it must be harder to be big.  I watch as these strange creatures, who are much bigger than I, run around everywhere, frazzled.  Most of them are too exhausted to see the sun rise and too busy to see it set, what a shame. Personally, sun sets are my favorite, its when the cool air begins to settle under my fur.  I usually like to find a cozy corner to hide in when this event happens and sometimes I get lucky and one of my sisters will snuggle with me to keep me warm.

I'm lucky to be a rat; nobody bothers me much and food is easy to come by.  My sisters snicker at me when I leave the nest early morning in the morning.  Rats are said to be nocturnal you see, but I just cannot help but love both times of the day.  I usually spend half of my week in the sun, letting it warm my pink little nose and streak my brown fur.  I take care not to be seen by the strange creatures who are running around and wheeling massive machines.

My favorite place is the beach.  There is a rocky wall right outside our nest that leads down the street to the sparkling water. I spend most of my time there day or night.  During the day I stay hidden in the crevices of the wall, but at night I run untamed.  I challenge the swirling dark sea of water, running in and out of the waves that are left behind.  I run down the beach in the cold sand, creating my own sandstorms.  I tackles the crabs that scurry the beach in the moonlight. But my favorite thing to do at the beach is to simply lay and admire.  The stars are what amaze me most , their sparkling dispositions and their unique formations entertain my mind for hours.

Yes, the world may be big for a small rat, such as myself, but it was created nevertheless, for us all. 

*Note:  I wrote this - this morning before I had any idea that one of my beloved pet rats had cancer and was put to sleep.  She is no longer with me and I'm terribly sad, I dedicate this tiny nothingness of work to Stella, I love you.

*(If you are incredibly confused......please read

Saturday, July 17, 2010

The Reformation

Ive failed to create the type of blog I intended to.  My first instinct, as Ive done with so many other blogs, is to just let this blog get lost forever in the mindless world called the internet. Ill eventually forget my password and user name and never visit this site again.  Ill find a new site and start all over.

I'm not giving up this time.  I'm not packing up shop and moving away. (Not that anybody was really worried about this anyways)
Instead I'm simply going to start blogging the way I intended to in the beginning.

What the hell does that mean?

It means Im about to go nerd on your asses. 

I started this blog as a good way for me to start writing everyday.  I wasn't writing my novel at the time and I decided writing SOMETHING everyday was better than nothing.  I didn't however, intend on making this blog a simple journal. I wanted it to be more of my tool.  My posts were supposed to be all in story format...were supposed to be completely random and at most times entirely fictional.  So this is a warning to those of you have read my blog....things are about to change......things are about to get scary, strange, scandalous and I dare say spectacular.

Friday, July 16, 2010

Another World

 Page Count : 50

Im entirely in fantasy land right now.  Ive been writing away. Ive written about 30 pages in the past day and Im still writing today. I dont have too much to say right now.
Im just excited about my story. :)  I even had a dream last night about it.
Alrighty well im off to write some more! 

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Clean Freak

Random Fact:   I spent all day yesterday cleaning our house for the return of the dark lord....yes Joes mom (and her boyfriend who is now about to live with us...weird)

I had a dream that I had cats. Now I love cats, so this dream was awesome and to make it even better my two cats had kittens...wait for it...that could talk.  Yupp.  But some guy (Im not sure if he was supposed to be my dad or what I have got no idea) told me I couldnt have the kittens. I basically said to him, *Listen here you Mofo these kittens came from the vag of my fricken their mine!*
 -- I also had a dream about decorating cakes and almost dying falling off a cliff.

On a happier note....I didnt get any financial aid for this next school year -.- God DAMNIT.  Seriously folks? How the hell did I not qualify? I honestly think people are prejudice because Im going to be an English major.  They read my letter and their like *Wow shes smart she finished two grades in one year....4.0.....she adopts newborn babies who dont have homes.....she donates money monthly to sarah mclachlans save the animals campaign.  wow....OH SHIT SHES AN ENGLISH MAJOR? Fuck it. (burns letter) What a loser that one was.*
(They go on to read the next letter)... *Oh honey, read this one. -- *Burns the hair off of children....kills cats for fun....Science Major..DING DING DING you've just got yourself 25,000 dollars! Gratz*
I'm stuck having to take out another flipping loan. This is so stupid its community college still have I cant even afford it.  Luckily, Im getting paid salary soon, but that wont help me NOW. Since my tuition is due TOMORROW.  Blarg.
 Anyhow... I did however, being the nerd that I am, look up some of the text books I will be needing to buy.
Ive said it before and I will say it again, buying books for classes is my absolute favorite thing to do. Why? I have no idea, because the book sits there for half a year and usually doesn't even get used.  So anyways I was really interested because Im taking another literature course this year with a focus on *Monster Fiction.*
So am I right...when you hear Monster Fiction don't you automatically think of the classics? Dracula..Frankenstein. That sort of stuff?
No my book list for that class is :

Geek Love
Melal : novel of the pacific (my teacher wrote this book, don't you think its a bit egotistical to make the students be requires to buy your own book and teach a class on it?

Okay so two books that look interesting Unwind and Grendel. However, they all have barely anything to do with monsters....maybe Im wrong, maybe Ill love them all (I sure hope so) needless to say I was disappointed.

Well...Im off to go watch some Harry Potter.  I had never watched all the movies before and the other day I watched all of them...except the third one lol because I thought I had actually seen that one. But by the end of the day I was so addicted and obsessed with Harry Potter I decided to go rent the third one and watch it anyways. :) ME NEED MORE HARRY POTTER. The good thing about Harry Potter is it makes me want to read and it really fires up my passion for writing my own book. So Ive been writing everyday so far.  I write longhand though so barely any of it is typed yet. I decided instead of writing and then typing what I just wrote Id keep writing longhand for a long while, because otherwise I go backwards and end up getting uninterested in my story because Im reading the same part over and over and not writing new parts.  Does that make sense? Lol okay Im outta here...

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


I feel disgusting.
Ive been eating so terribly and I'm really trying to stop and get myself back into my workout routine. But getting over those first anxieties of leaving the house again is what has been stopping me.
I really do feel sick though from all this shit Ive eaten.

This morning I'm also really tired (granted its only 3:20am....but still) I didn't get to bed till around 11 which was dumb on my part, but for some reason I didn't feel very tired. Ive felt so hot lately- I just looked it up its been like 72-82 which is normal its  just humid and driving me insaneeee..

After work Ive got to come home and clean the entire house. Joes mom returns from her 3 week trip with her new boyfriend who is moving in.  Needless to say the place is trashed because Joe and I are really lazy at cleaning. In my defense I DID clean twice independently when she was gone... now its time for major cleaning though. Vacuuming floors, shining counters that kind of stuff. I know Im not going to feel like it either when I get home. SIGH
Maybe today I will actually take a nap?????? Every morning I wake up at 3am and think TODAY WHEN I GET HOME FIRST THING I DO IS JUMP INTO BED... but honestly every time I get off work I go get like subway come home and veg and then lay on the couch and watch something stupid. WHat a waste of time. However I have been getting a lot of writing done in the last couple of days!!  I did a whole Harry Potter marathon the other day :) Which reminds me to return that to blockbuster... okay well i have  a lot more to say but I gotta get to work ..

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Pastry Shop

Yupp thats me.
Lots ...lots....lots....LOTS has been going on.
For the past 2 ? 3? weeks Ive been running around working, doing errands and fitting in family pictures/events. Its been hectic, to say the least. As you can see from my picture...Ive lost my noggin a bit. Im glad to inform you that slowly, but surely my noggin is coming back mama.

My brothers wedding went well:

( For the record - I made that tiny cake on top and helped ice some of those cupcakes. :D )
I also did a hula dance for my brother (which went well except for the almost de-dressing myself and having a seizure on stage while dancing) pictures to come of that  (I think) my sister took all the pictures so Im waiting for her to upload more.
I was also in charge of the playlist at their wedding which was good I made c.d.s since their d.j decided to just not show up..... he was in charge of their first song and luckily (THANK GOD FOR I-PHONES) i was able to download their first song on an iphone for their dance!!
Besides the wedding....
Ive been working, of course!
I am (almost officially my background check is almost finished) an assistant manager. WOOT.
My salary has even been quoted to me and I am quite happy to say that it is a great deal larger than I had anticipated.  I had prepared myself for the lowest of possibilities and didn't even think I would get this high under the best circumstances (since Im young etc) However, I am very very fortunate to already have such a great salary and am looking forward to being able to pay off that car I just bought and putting lots of money into my savings account!

Today was the first day in 2 weeks Ive had all to myself and I must say I rather enjoyed it. I watched Ace of Cakes all day and ate cake.
Saturday is Joes 21st birthday :D Ive been trying to plan something special for him and unfortunately his mother wont be here for his birthday - so it was left ENTIRELY up to me to plan something for his actual day.
So...behind his back...ive bough 21 items which tomorrow morning I am going over to my parents house (where I have them waiting because Joe is extremely nosy and he will take every opportunity he can to ruin surprises. ) to wrap.. I AM ALSO...going to be baking him a cake! Yes...I know...  I have become a cake whore.  But you know what...Ive decided I wish I were a cake decorator and Jon Id open a bakery up with you anyyy day! But ya...Im going to hide the 21 items all over our house and make him find his presents and also bake him a cake (he has no idea i am doing this) Which is going to be pretty I hope...and Im trying out a whipped cream frosting which should be yummy. Ill post pictures Saturday after the main event!!
BUT seriously. My DREAM DREAM....(get ready) would be to have a tiny pastry/cake shop that served coffee of course (since that is currently my specialty) and in my little pastry shop people could come and sit down and chill out in my awesome pastry shop that has a GIANT book shelf with tons of books and little miniature book shelves ON the tables themselves with book lamps.....

Just in case you cant picture this ...heres my blueprints!
I know...I know..Im amaazzzingg... hahaha

Okay anyhow...besides my day dreaming...Ive been...
Creating fictional stories up in my head and writing them down.  Lol, guess theres not much reality in my life, but oh well. WHO NEEDS REALITY. PSH.

God.....I want cake.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Let Them Eat Cake

Did you know Marie Antoinette never actually said the phrase, *Let them eat cake?*
It was a big rumor made up by the people because they hated her.
Nice little random fact for you guys.

Anyhow, I just finished watching 10 hours worth of Ace of Cakes.
I do wish I were a cake designer/maker. Lets just get that out right now.
Yes, I have actually thought about registering myself for cake making classes etc. and I might pursue this career if ever I am at a loss... However, I will just have to live vicariously through Ace of Cakes and Amazing Wedding Cakes. Cake Boss is just a little too obnoxious for me, sorry.
(For some reason I cannot add a picture to this post -.- )

I love my family, I really do. So why is it...that I cant stand being with them for longer than an hour???? I don't know. Honestly, I really don't.
My brothers wedding is on Monday. Ive had a lot of stress about his wedding and I cant wait for it to be here and over with. In the midst of my promotion I got changed stores and the days I requested off got bumped down to *not priority* and the major day I needed off, my brothers wedding day, was not given to me. I was scheduled to work until an hour before my brothers wedding. I bought a really simple dress, because I was going to get my hair done and do the jewelry I finally found someone to cover my shift, thankfully, and that stress has been put to rest. Now its just relax time! Well...not really.

I haven't been running. I was doing so good, but I stopped for like 3 days and now its turned into 3 weeks....Every day I tell myself Im going to start again and so far nadya. Fuck. Is all I have to say to all of it. I want to be fricken skinny and everyday I wake up with the intention of never eating again. Im like...k today is the day I start being anorexic and somehow I end up buying a slice of chocolate cake and eating it all???? HAHAHA Im a terrible failure. But one way or another I plan to lose this extra poundage. I will. I swear.

Joes 21st birthday is next week! Luckily, I was given off the day!!! However, I have no idea what to do for him! I bought about 10,000 balloons, streamers and banners. So I'm definitely going to decorate the house crazy kind!
Ive bought two items so far, but I want to buy a bunch of little presents, so he has lots to open....I need ideas. Hes a homebody, he likes video games and computers. Im going to make him a cake- I just decided this..I can finally test out my cakery skills. mwaha. OKAY. I Ammm..going to go plan this thing.