Cars, Cars, Cars, and then some more CARS... why are you so expensive? Why will I always be in debt to somebody throughout my whole life? These simple life necessities are starting to weight down on my brain.
My goal has been to be as debt free as I can possibly be. I have not used a single credit card (nor do I plan to) and I paid for my first two semesters of school out of pocket. But now Im going to school full time which is around $1,500 just for the classes at a community college not even including book prices. I gave in and decided student loans I will do. But now I think about it and Im going to be bogged down with loans for the rest of my life! A car loan, school loan, house loan......! Thats crazy! I was driving to the bank today to work out some minor details and I started thinking...WHAT IF, I dont get my dream job? WHAT IF, I don't even get a job that pays well at all!? HOW WILL I BE ABLE TO AFFORD IT ALL? Rent and payments??? How? Luckily, if anything I have the job I am currently at...but when I get my degree and start applying for jobs...?? What if nobody wants me? Or somebody does want me, but I make no money at it?
Well it will do me no good to worry about it all. So I will just take it as it comes and hope to god I can keep myself altogether.
My writing.. I haven't even begun this process yet. I have everything in my head and nothing down on paper. But I have hope. At the end of the Bell Jar there was a short biography about Sylvia Plath and apparently she had been planning to write the Bell Jar for 10 years, but was experiencing a *Novel Block.*
Now hopefully this does not continue on for 10 more years... although I guess it already almost has since I was 11 when I initially said *I AM GOING TO WRITE A NOVEL!* and began furiously scribbling down everything I could think of. (Oh, the story was terrible, but how I wish I could read it all now..I had stacks and stacks of paper, but I threw it all away when I was like 13...)
Easter, meant nothing to me but another day to work. Usually, I get all excited about holidays and put together little Easter egg baskets and such, but this year...I did nothing! I went car shopping and went to work. Blah! Happy Belated Easter!!! <3
LOL that bunny's going to haunt my nightmares.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry everything's so expensive! I'm sending plenty of good financial luck your way!!!
Bahahahaha! I loved the bunny!
ReplyDeleteGirllll I hear ya with the financial situation. At least you won't have oh say...$80,000 in loans for undergrad. I hate college. It's so expensive. Ugh.I have a feeling like most people are in debt until they die anyways though, unless they get super rich and successful and that's not many people. All we can do is our best in college, hope we've learned something, and go out into the world with our meager degrees in hand.
wow after that review i might just have to read that book! i SO feel for you over the whole debt thing...i'm only 20 and already have a credit card i owe waaaayy to much on...hoping to get that sorted VERY SOON! i guess we can't beat ourselves up over it too much though...we can only do the best we can!
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